BUSES
some buses are air conditioned, some are not.
some buses are double-deckers and nice looking, others are single-deckers and 'intimidated'.
different buses represent different kinds of potential partners we may meet along the way. there may be alot of options to get to the same destination. you may wan to take the bus that offers you the short cut and the fastest way to where you wanna go. or you may take the one tat offers you the long and comfortable ride. what's the rush anyway? another scenario may be that you tend to just jump into a bus, whichever comes first and hope to reach your destination. but lo and behold. you may end up at the same place, you may not. you might have carelessly gotten onto a bus without checking out the bus number since you are in a rush. however, the bus took you to where you do not want to be and you ended up being more desperate than ever.
isn't it the same as relationships? some pple are too eager to start on one and totally didn't consider to want to know the person better before 'getting on the bus'. if you are not in a rush, you may want to simply just wait for the one that you know will slowly but surely come your way soon. and all in all, you know you will definitely be comfortable sitting thru the bus ride until the destination is reached.
as for whether the buses are air-conditioned or not, double-decker or not. they represent the appearance of that person. does it really matter if that person is very good-looking or can make you very comfortable just for a while or during the initial stage of knowing each other? ultimately, whether the bus will break down or not. is another question altogether.
the question which has no answer until the end is... are you on the right bus?
Labels: My BUSES hypothesis
wowowow!~ here i am with this emo blogskin creating a new blog after several not-to-be-published-ex-blogs. initially i wanted a more lovey-dovey blogskin but hey! i'm not supposed to ignite tat. tho they are really nice and cute and sweet. not for me. YET. =) but dun you think this one is pretty cool too? i'll get my pony tails back. real soon. be patient yah. hee. hmm.. wad makes me wanna open up another new blog? i guess i have too much to think about. or rather i have been tasked to think about too many stuff and i realised i type faster than i write (esp when i write neatly and so serenely =X).
well. recently i have been thinking about alot of questions that i have absolutely no answers to and that scares me coz it revolves around the reason for my existence. and how i wish God can quickly tell me all the answers to my questions.
Questions like:
What's my purpose in life? what's the reason for my existence?
What are my goals and aims in life?
Why do i wanna achieve them?
How to achieve them?
Ans so what after i have done so?
and the list goes on and on. and it really scares me much.
i guess i have been put into my family to help out on various chores and duties that must be done by someone who's not busy with stuff. tat's me. now. holidays. haha. i guess tat makes me quite helpful and useful. other than tat. i still gotta find answers to them.
i guess from now on, i will be super random and just type wadeva comes to my mind. i wan to spare myself the pain of having to arrange nicely and properly for an essay or something for pple to scrutinise. crap. there's basically no model answer for blogs. and i really thank God for that. haha. i mean if the way you express yourself is so restricted then do it not. it'll be sure a chore. great chore. yup. so many things running thru my mind. aren't they tired? they must be panting and begging me to quickly record them down so i can get a betta sound sleep tonight.
as always, the past has came knocking time after time. are they haunting me? you bet. but still i noe they are there for a purpose. and i hope it's not gonna be destructive as they always are. constructive and destructive.. just 3 letters different from each other yet they make such immeasureable difference practically. err.. bascially i dunnoe wad i'm ranting about. they just go on and on. or maybe i just refuse to be direct, knowing that pple do noe me and this blog's contents will be kinda sensitive. that's the purpose of the previous blogs i had. haha. those blogs are really words from the heart at that point in time. but seriously, why bother finding out? they are in the PAST. and pls dun tell me the famous phrase that says 'it's the past that make you who you are todae' spare me. i noe it well enough to noe it's true.
well my past. it has been beautiful. full of memories. full of tears. full of love. full of sweet stuff. full of sacrifices. a little bit of regrets. i have a fair share of them all. and i wonder how my future will be like. haha. so cheesy. and there was this super random night just before i sleep i prayed. Dear God i dunnoe if it's right to ask of this but can you pls make sure my future husband will at the very least be good-looking?' yah i can hear you laugh now. go ahead. but i noe. tat alone is not important. anymore. haha. talking bout growing up. i have grown taller and i have learnt alot from past potential relationships. wan to noe? you really gotta ask me personally. i dun mind repeating them but it's just too lengthy to spell them out here. however, it's subject to approval. hey i didn't ask you to send in your proposal which must take at least 3 days to process. it's good enough le. =X
alright i guess i'm quite good at rubbishing. and be sure to expect more. but this blog doesn't choose to entertain. i hope.
night (and hello! to my beloved bolster!!)
Labels: Lord?, why am i here on earth
