woooohoooo!!!!!!!!~~ i'm now at Changi Airport T3 blogging this entry!!! ready to board MU546 to Shanghai Pudong! i decided that this trip to China has a THEME!! haha! it's gonna be a THANKSGIVING trip!! =D heee!
and all the events and thanksgiving will be recorded down on my hp. since it's mobile! why not huh? =D let me copy down wad i typed on the cab on the way to airport.
19th Aug 6.33am
Dad and mum sent me to the Airport T3! now we're on the cab. feel so loved and amazed!
remember initially i was afraid that my daddy will object to me going overseas?? now he's sending me there! and yesterdae dad was okie with me going on my own. but this morning at 530am he woke mummy up and said, "Let's go and send her off together!" haha!!~ considering tat my daddy was lao-sahing twice this morning. he must have lost sleep all night! but still i find that it's SOOOOOOOoOOooo sweet of them to send me off. it's kinda sad to go overseas alone. heee.. thank God for PARENTS!!!!! love them so much! =) and yes SERENE, it's gonna be a THANKSGIVING TRIP! I'LL BE BACK SOON! WATCH OUT FOR ME!
=D
give thanks with a grateful heart
give thanks to the Holy One
give thanks because He's given Jesus Christ His Son!
yarlo!! =) sorry for the saddedddie previous post. thank God i just get betta. =)
wahhh.. know wad? i can't imagine i am really going China! with my fren somemore! first time growing out of my cage coz i think it's getting tight and it has now bursteded.. haa! hmm.. let's see.. we went to the Natas on 1August, Fridae. and we finally got wad we exactly wanted. the timing and the dates and the places (i HOPE) are given to us so graciously! thank God! and then finally broke the news to er jie, si jie,mummy, and then... DADDY and da jie.. think my bro doesn't noe yet. haha. but not impt lah. and that was Sundae, 3rd. next, on Mondae 4th, we went to JP to do our visas. just got it this afternoon 13th. and we went to people's park to collect our air tix and itenary. and thank God i won't be carrying a pai ka around. hehe! next, i went to Boon lay sc after my sista put me plane to have tuition another day while she screamed at Gerald. sigh. kids. and then i was so stunned that the exchange rate has dropped tremendously!!! i think i checked the rate at first on 5th tuesdae after sending Gerald to blgps. it was S$1 : RMB4.94. when i finally changed it (noeing tat it will continue to fall!), i only managed to get RMB4.82 thanks to one of the uncles out of the 3 shops which originally offered 4.81, he offered me 4.82 which does make a difference. haha. i can't imagine i lugi S$160 just like tat. =( so sad. but still thank God lah. hopefully all will go smoothly. these are my prayer requests and i noe and i hope my BRAders and sistas or whoever who chance upon this back in Singapore will keep me in your daily prayers!
1. SAFETY! most imptly. even if i dun get to shop and bargain much WE must be safe!
2. SHOPPING! i have came up with my shopping list. the last time i went to Hong Kong, i only got clothes. now i want the following!
=>purple Adidas sneakers with white background lah. i hate the whole thing purple tho i'm a purple freak.
=>Burberry bag or wallet (hopefully i can differentiate imitations..)
=>clothes clothes MORE clothes!
=> PSP?? dunnoe if my frens want or not. if wan call me NOW!
=>2 Ben Ten watches for my nephews Gerald and Joel. maybe 3? for Axios too!
=>some snacks for my family
=>sweater/windbreaker
=>if can, shop for my mummy too! i kinda feel bad not bringing her along. hee.
3. SAVOURY! good best bestest food only will we get to eat. all the meals are included so i hope they dun give us junk. i am a food specialist. tho i can't cook. at all.
4. SUNSHINE and wind! no earthquake or any natural disaster PLEASE! good weather and no rain and be able to witness God's beautiful handiworks. heard Xi Hu is the breath-taking place in China. woots!
5. SMILEY tour guide who can make us smile just like tat! it's gonna be the 2 of us forming a tour so i really hope the tour guide (hopefully a female) will be fun, entertaining and hilarious! =) and the driver who will be driving us around will be patient with us and our weird requests if there ever should be (such as shopping malls not included in our itinerary) let everyone who meet us SMILE and be courteous and friendly! especially when we are bargaining for cheapestestestestest price ever! oh God bless us! heee..
i guess you noe why i put them into 5 Ss. it's easier to remember esp when you are praying for Serene! =) thanks once again for your support in prayers! really blessed by you! :D THANK YOU!!!!!!!
oh... i'm so blessed. dear God help me to really count my blessings one by one when i come back from China! =) i'll keep you guys updated! Cheerios!! (and BRAder, pls stop using my Cheerios! and wadeva other stuff i have trademarked. Go invent your own idOit.)
yah i saw the song on her blog, BRA. and i'm reminded of him.. again..
on the mrt.
i: eh.. why are you looking at me so weirdly?
him: (gives me a very 'blank' look)
i: are you alright?? why do you look so sleepy? are you feeling tired??
him: no. (STILL the 'blank' look)
i: ??? then why do you look at me like tat? you looked.. erm.. mesmerized by me.. =X
him: yah, i am mesmerized by you.
i: **shy**blush**um-chio**
oh my. wad did i do again? now i am trying to pull myself out of this emo-ness while listening to Christian Bautista - The Way You Look At Me. do you remember those are your eyes when you look at me? i can't erase that from my mind. but wad can i do? as always, i'll psycho myself outta remembering the past and get on with my life. how long can i do this? no. i won't give in to the Devil and go back on my promise. even if this makes my heart ache literally. it's not the right time. not the right place. not the right memories. i can't be like you, BRAder. coz i've been shot many times. i've been clinging to empty hopes many times. and even if i choose to go back, i won't feel the peace. i dunnoe if this is the Devil's work in me now tat i'm feeling wad i'm feeling. i know. i always know he's trying to work and make me fall. but i won't let God down. it's just that these memories just won't go away. pray for me. pray for me. whoever is reading this. pray for me. that the memories will fade away esp when it's not God's will. that my heart won't wait esp when it's not God's will. i am not waiting for you. no.
i missed your mesmerised eyes.
roar. i spent one meaningful hour to blog todae's happenings and most imptly, my heartfelt feelings and in-depth thots. in a blink of an eye and a few punch of the keyboard, it's all gone. hate it. in summary. i learnt this in Kairos
† Only one life will soon be past. Only what's done for Christ will last
i wonder if i can really go out into the mission field, knowing that this is what will last and be rewarded for eternity. But deep down, i think it’s pointless to even think of going to the mission field when my parents whom i have known all my life have been yet been saved. And so i prayed that God will soften their hearts and be gracious to them so that they may receive and embrace the gift of salvation that only the one true living God can offer.
Sigh i feel so sad tat my post was deleted accidentally. Yucks. Hate it. Now i have to recall those things i wrote. It was all heart-felt and in-depth tots lor. Roar. Lesson learnt. Type into Microsoft word first then cut and paste into the blog. Hope tat helps a little. I’m too lazy to type out all over. Nite.
alright you can't see the words of Leo Tolstoy coz the idOit computer didn't save it. oh well. i lazy to post again. nite
helloo! i'm back. with quite a heavy heart. firstly, i REALLY didn't mean to make my dear BRAder cry. sigh. stupid mouth ask stupid question. shucks. i'm like building up a record list of guys crying in front of me. roar. secondly, i have gathered lots of tots from long ago till present regarding matters on marriage, finding the right partner, setting up a family, having crazy ignorant kids you really wanna strangle and maybe.. bout the carnal nature of mankind. ahha. i have and do not really have a rough idea on how i'm gonna post this. it may sound offensive and ridiculous. but hey do remember i have a very kind and friendly soul.
first up, regrettably is bout finding a partner who is LEAST, ABSOLUTELY THE VERY VERY SUPER LEAST resembles or acts like my brother (by birth). not tat i'm interested to find any now. but every time i see my bro, i can't believe we share the same parents. well, he do takes after my father in his young days... very and i really mean VERY bad-tempered, ridiculous, idOitic, anyhow scold anyone who comes along when he's PMSing. basically bastard. and i really really pity his wife and barely one-year-old charming son. his wife used to share a bit bout marriage before they got married. she was a bit scared that she might marry the wrong man. and BINGO! good job. she really went ahead with this wrong one. sigh. they dun usually have quiet days. the bas will be a sissy nag once you activate his idOitic button. and he will go on and on and showcase to everyone that he's angry and pissed overy sissy things when he is. i know i might have sinned. alright. i have. definitely. but he's really a bas. he's super lazy and do not exactly care bout the family. better still, he married a super lazy wife! altogether they hate cleanliness and i honestly doubt whether the word 'hygiene' exists in their vocab. come on! you have a kid now and the most important thing you can ever give to him is to practice personal hygiene such as keeping the rat room you 3 are staying in! you dun store up the USED DIAPERS for as long as your dustbin can hold them! and who cleans up those shit? either me or my mum. poor mummy. when she told his wife to change the bedsheet, my mum was totally ignored. and considering that the kid will also be sleeping on the same bed as the lazy idoits, my mum gave in and changed for them. see? first the temper+smoking+drinking+late nights+laziness. wah! you get something that's too trashy to be mentioned. as i gathered all these experiences staying with them for at least 3 to 4 years, i gathered that i will never marry someone like tat bas and even if i do, i will not give birth and PLAY around with another innocent life. it's injustice.talking bout justice. it doesn't exist. but God knows just wad to do perfectly. i'll leave it to Him. but there's one thing i always feel so heart wrenched over is when i look at Vince (their son). you should have seen his delicate being getting stronger each day, making the best out of everything. smiling at the world as if he has just the best. laughing and squeeling like he has no worries at ALL. his charming smile never cease to make my heart melt and pity him that he has such parents. i mean he deserve better. among all my nephews, he is the most handsome one (at his age, of coz) but i heard handsome babies will usually become ugly when they grow up. ok. no sidetracks. but sigh. i feel very sad and my heart full of pity can only be expressed to this gullible and innocent face. and i noe tat God has been really good to the bas. blessing him with a wife (dunne if that counts as a blessing but at least some being wants him), giving him an almost perfect looking baby, granting him a job tat offers better human-like hours, giving him parents who let him go his way, granting him maids (mum and i). do i hate him? no i dun. i hate his conduct. just as how God loves us but hates the sins. sigh. yup, even if i were to die single, i'd never want such a idOit as the man of my life.
kids kids kids. so much to say bout them. they can really drive you up the ceiling. and i really wonder wad's the joy of having kids. they simply just receive receive and demand MORE and more from you. you just have to GIVE give give out of your love for them. do they noe your love thru that? i dunnoe. from the experiences of my sisters and how they handle and straggle with their kids, i gathered that i'll just be a wife, not a mum. sad huh. it terrifies me when i tot of having kids. i need a man who doesn't pressurize me at all. he'll dirve me to my grave. at least let me first have the dying passion and desire for kids 1st then say. if not. end of story. anyway, being half-mothers of my nephews and niece is not a bad idea after all. sigh. God knows how the future will be like. you see, i'm a very impatient person, esp when it comes to kids. if ever i were to have them, they will definitely be abused. unless. unless. i'm the breadwinner and i have a motherly husband. ahhuh.... tat WILL be different! wahahaha! nah. i dun think i'd like such a man too. lol.
i was at jurong east library todae teaching tuition. then i was reading Our Journey(teenager's version of our daily bread) and then todae's article mentioned bout this Count Leo Tolstoy. he wrote one classic titled War and Peace. and so i went to look for it. haha. saw it and i can't believe it's tat thick.at least 8 to 9 cm thick. seriously no time to read bout it. he's a wealthy Russian aristocrat born in 1828 and went through a life-changing religious crisis in his forties. and so all his books reflects certain situations in his life and so he wrote his experiences as well as short fiction stories AND interpreted the Bible in a different but interesting way. dunnoe if he's bias or not. but i came across this long passage tat hence persuades me to borrow it back. but it's tot-provoking.
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