heyyo! am just trying to update tho i think i should go rest now. some things happened unexpectedly.. had very bad sore throat and fever last night. but thank God, after praying subconsicously all night, i got better but just got super tired coz didn't really sleep. woke up randomly many times thinking to myself why hasn't the sky brighten up a bit to look like 8am? quite tiring this whole week. had whole day classes from Sat and ongoing till Thurs. it's kinda crazy. i mean if i can't stand it now, how can i start working officially? which leads me to think about wad kinda job i'll like to do. sigh. good, reasonable pay, nearer to the West or furthest Central area, 5-day week. that's all i ask for! hmm.. i dunnoe man. until now, i've been applying for accounting-related jobs. BUT i CMI totally in accounting!! i dun even noe the basic debit-credit wadever dit. roar. and now the BIG 4 audit firms have frooze headcount. simply means they have stopped hiring, except those who have 1st class honours i think. and this is not possible for me to obtain. but i'm aiming for second upper class tho. and i'm left with 2 more subjects with 60 marks and above to clinch that Second upper. sounds easy to many. but it's not even easy to pass! i'm not thinking of just passing. i'm thinking of 2nd upper. i think with God being my Helper, i can do it! on the other hand, i wonder if God will grant to me my heart's desires. well, i promised God that if He were to grant me a Second upper, i'll definitely testify to the whole congregation during service how God has brought me thru my whole life of education so far. i mean, come to think bout it, all my life, i have never been to a school i fancy or one that i am SUPER wooper proud to be in. all my life, i have been stuck in neighbourhood schools. and i can't even get into any local uni. until now, i feel a bit inferior when ppl ask where i'm studying now. and when i say SIM, some very sua ku ones will ask. wad is that? got such a school meh? (this is only asked by the younger ones in church, no adults involved) haha. which definitely makes me feel worst. but well, i guess, i'm not lacking in anything. i must say i'm rather happie at SIM. as compared to NUS and NTU, the timetable is not as flexible and all in all, i only need to take up 12 modules during the 3 years. and UOL is quite recognised. yah.. and since young, i noe i must work hard. if not, there's no way i can get to where i am. and i tend to work hard and NOT work smart. sigh. it's not good. i realise hard work is not always paid off esp when you dun study with the right techniques!
dad was down with fever todae. had a fall 2 weeks ago. poor dad. sigh. todae went to the crazy doc only in the late evening to get 2 injections on the butt. got us all worried. mum's foot, mainly the heel, is painful. need a new pair of sports shoes. shall bring her out soon i hope. but the thing is i dun drive. not an incentive for her to go out with me.
as for the job and my studies now, i really gotta pray and listen to God's soft prompting. a couple of insurrance companies called me up for interview which at the first place, i NEVER did send my resume in. and they are really good at psychoing me and hiding the true job description from me. they will put it as "Financial Planner" and until i asked EXPLICITLY and MORE STRAIGHTFORWARDLY by saying, "izzit mainly selling of insurance?" then that woman on the other side will giggle a bit and say YES. wad an idoit. go one big round and try to fool xiao mei mei. yucks. and when i say i'm not interested, she still pressed in and asked why. i said i do not like sales and i do not like to entertain ppl. and she was still trying very hard by saying, "oh, you should try out and see if you like it?" i nearly wanna blow up. but obviously i just said very politely, NO THANKS! idoit. this is super not professional. i mean if you want to hire, YOU DO NOT SOUND DESPERATE even if YOU ARE!!! roar. that turns me off totally can. i'd rather go for interviews that jobs of higher reputation can offer. at least they must act like they are hard to get then got value mah! haha. silly me. oh well. gotta go. can sense my sore throat coming back. goodnite.
from Hymnal.net :) a song i sang at service few weeks ago. thank God for His promises in this simple song! :D
DAY BY DAY
Day by day, and with each passing moment,
Strength I find to meet my trials here;
Trusting in my Father's wise bestowment,
I've no cause for worry or for fear.
He, whose heart is kind beyond all measure,
Gives unto each day what He deems best,
Lovingly its part of pain and pleasure,
Mingling toil with peace and rest.
Every day the Lord Himself is near me,
With a special mercy for each hour;
All my cares He fain would bear and cheer me,
He whose name is Counsellor and Pow'r.
The protection of His child and treasure
Is a charge that on Himself He laid;
"As thy days, thy strength shall be in measure,"
This the pledge to me He made.
Help me then, in every tribulation,
So to trust Thy promises, O Lord,
That I lose not faith's sweet consolation,
Offered me within Thy holy Word.
Help me, Lord, when toil and trouble meeting,
E'er to take, as from a father's hand,
One by one, the days, the moments fleeting,
Till with Christ the Lord I stand.
just randomly took a personality test. i dun usually believe in those tests at all. not tat i do now but this one proves rather accurate. haha. somethings i dun even noe but to a certain extent (not fully tho) it may be true. it's from this webby... http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
